Clairaudience
Sitri: Of the Darkness and the Deep
When my work with Prince Sitri began, I was shockingly terrified of being swallowed up by the dark and drown alive in his presence. It took me years to begin understanding how truly deep his power runs and how expansive it really is. A while ago, I began a more in-depth learning path with him, wherein I asked to be taught about his nature of overwhelming power.
If ever there was a spirit that revels in his power, that hungers and hunts for the thrill of exercising it, it’s Sitri. In the dark, many things roam. In the dark, many demons lay, and many more are ready pounce.
Sitri, from what I have seen, is most often discussed in terms of lust, but this is a trivialization of his true talents. Considering both lust and other types of magick, there are certainly more instances of “other” that I have worked with Sitri on. In fact, I held ritual with Sitri for a little over 3 years, on a somewhat frequent basis, before I first approached him regarding the topic of lust, or even obsession which he’s helped me understand better since.

If you’re interested in some background on Sitri, check out Sitri: Prince of Lust and if you’re interested in my experiences with healing and abundance magick with Sitri, check out: Sitri: Health & Wealth.
Raw Power
Once, during an obsession ritual (for a client) I was holding with both Dantalion and Sitri present, I was led (in the astral) into a dark, small room by Sitri. There, on a bed with yellow sheets was the “target” of the ritual’s work. And Sitri rolled his fingers and from them dripped little, perfect, golden drops suffused with him, with his power.
I asked, then, how I could mimic this action, how I might find myself with so much power that it would pour from my fingertips at the slightest motion. He laughed his sinful, deadly laugh and with some evil lurking beneath the surface of it, turned to me and smiled. Horrible memories, though his or mine or some fabrication thereof I wasn’t sure, haunting his pointed teeth he said, “It is me.“
The meaning was clear, but something was still hidden. I knew in that moment, without a doubt what he meant. That I am, like he is, the magic. There is no tool that separates these, no wand or pendant or crystal ball that is the power behind the mask of the magician. Instead, I am, as he is, and as you are, the power, magic, and skill all in one. The darkness knocking against my chest is not some trivial reminder to wake up and search for what I want, it is the answer roaring to be let free.
But I, as many magicians do, keep it locked up. The Shadow we call it affectionately, fearfully, always distancing it as other. But here Sitri comes and says, surrender. The fear is not that we are powerless, the fear is that we are not in control.
Sitri is additionally one of the spirits that most swiftly delivers results to me. Whether miraculous feats of healing in the span of five breaths, messages populating my phone, delivering people to my doorstep in minutes, or lighting people up with drops of obsession, madness, or anything else imaginable. Sitri reeks of power. His presence alone sits heavy in a room, his glowing eyes, and sharpened teeth, his quick-witted words and lust for the dark.
Never have I met another so tremendously and viscerally steeped in their own power. Often spirits mask themselves, sometimes quite cleverly in our presence, but Sitri has never pretended to be anything other than a tempter of darkness with me. From the certainty he would kill me on our first meeting to power he has taught me to harness, Sitri is a spirit and a demon I would truly class as eternally exuding raw power. No matter where his start was, the spirit he is now is unfathomably dangerous, playful, and powerful in all things. Sitri carries his power as though it is all of him, it he all of it. This is a lesson we might all do well to learn from him.
Exploring the Shadows
As a part of a ritual, I made a deal with Sitri. To work with him in a new capacity, to allow him to teach me, to allow him to lead me into the darkness, the shadow, the deep waters from which return is staggeringly unlikely, if at all possible. They say Eve took a bite of the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge; in doing so she was so irreversibly changed she was banished and forsaken to a cursed life–though I don’t believe that word is used, the exacted punishment for her choice seems easy to read as a curse, especially with the power dynamic at play in the Garden.
I haven’t found any suspicious trees laying about, or talking serpents. But I have found knowledge and power beyond compare where the shadows dwell. It was August 17, 2023 when I first ventured down this path, with full commitment. Sitri had outlined rules, some of these: Water only, at least 15 – 24 hours advance. (You may eat that which is alive–sparingly and with caution). Bathe. Salt your hair. Be free of excess adornments.
It was a just a couple hours before my ritual began that many of these became relevant, I was surprised at which. At least one seemed a playful joke. But there was no lightness to his voice as he passed them to me and I penned them into his grimoire.
Even though he had outlined the ritual and I had read it over before beginning, I was still caught up in what happened next. There are few rituals I rank as most or near most intense at this point in my practice: my first ritual; my first meeting with Prince Sitri; and two others, this one now included there. It was a meditation, in the sense that my eyes were closed and I was still, but I’ve come to realize not everyone feels their meditations.
When I asked what this was, concerned this was one of those irreversible moments on my path, something I could do and never return from, Sitri met my nerves with quiet sincerity. Mockeries and haunting echoes gone, to my wonderings if I would be different he replied easily.
Not different, more whole. Calm first. Go and learn. Feel power brush against you. Welcome it and know yourself.
Channeled (Sitri)
That night, I drown in the Shadow. Walked soaking wet through labyrinth caves, met with memories I’ve never held, and listened as he spoke of the dark, of The Shadow, and of power so deep it rumbled with every casual movement, beneath every breath, and poured over into All.
It was from Sitri I first heard the phrase, “The Shadow of the All.”
It was from Sitri I first heard the phrase, “The Shadow of the All.” It was not during the first of these dark meditations, but soon after. While the first had certainly felt more initiatory than anything else, quickly I began to see it was not even the tip of the iceberg. Since then, I have learned of incredible divination, prosperity, and healing rites with Sitri. I have learned of portals, fear, and self. Of the Shadow, Heart, and Knowledge.
Drowning in the darkness has never been more beautiful as with you, Sitri, at my side. For this I thank you.
Nightmares of Torture
Following my very first ritual with Sitri, terrifying in it’s own right, I was awakened to the realization that it’s possible to feel in dreams. This is much the same as my reference to feeling in meditation in the previous section. I had no idea then that Sitri had such a reputation for such sinister dreams.
My first glimpse of Sitri’s interest in the magician outside of ritual, was breathtaking in all the best ways. I had never had such an experience before and was amazed at the clarity. I’d worked with “demons,” but never felt the “demonic” so up close. But after that, it was two of the most horrible nightmares I have ever had.
In both, I was chased, caught, and tortured. I’m sure it’s torture lite compared to what humans have inflicted upon each other, but nonetheless I was not expecting it and was feeling both fear and pain within the dream, so much so that when I woke my mind was still racing and I could feel the aftereffects from the dream physically in my body. I was afraid to sleep a few nights following each instance.
When confronted, he laughed. Took full ownership of the dreams, smiled at my distress. Wallowed contently in my suffering at the conflicted feelings of wanting to work with him and having to accept it might just come with a steep price.
Sitri, since then, has given to me several challenging dreams, but never of that caliber again. The themes have shifted from bodily torture to other territories. As each comes I become more used to them, noticing more frequently in-dream what is likely going on. Still, they are often deeply unsettling and the feeling lingers long past waking up. Whether a demon’s amusement, or to further my practice doesn’t matter to me. No matter why, working with Sitri has been one of the most enlightening things I’ve done in all my life.
The Darkness & The Deep
My work with Sitri is far from over, these are just the calm beginnings of so much that lies even deeper below the surface, even darker within the abyss. Shadows, pools of endless “water,” labyrinth cave layouts light does not reach…these and more are just parts of the path I’ve decided to walk alongside Sitri.
Sitri has invoked in me such primal fear, and so quickly I’ve learned to trust him regardless of this. From the first time I met him, I’ve felt pulled in, mesmerized. He is darkness. Shining fangs dripping poison, smelling like the sweetness of a candy shop. He is depth. So full of power and knowledge. It is not the giving up of fear, but the acceptance of it which makes my work with him so powerful.
To wade blindly into the darkest depths you’ve found. Whether it’s into yourself, in the external world, hunting for knowledge, or otherwise. This is how we know ourselves. What it is that you would, without hesitation, even if it meant staring into some unfathomable darkness seek out? follow? chase? hunt? want?
Sitri has taught me that once you have opened the door to unknown, it is not only your choice whether you pursue it. For it will pursue you if you dare to turn your back. I had more than one serious conversation before beginning this type of immersive work with him about where the line of no return is located. It seems we cross them more frequently than I had supposed, each gaining a little in commitment and irreversibility. The darkness of this path and the depths of waters yet unknown are daunting but much more than that they awesome and fill of intrigue.
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Understanding Tarot
Tarot Cards have been used for a very long time as divination tools. I recommend anyone interested in (learning) reading cards have at least some working knowledge on the history of tarot. It can help understand what uses cards have, how they can be used, and how reading can differ from one reader or another.
Aside from the differences between card readers, there are also many detailed differences between tarot decks. There is a tradition, for example, that Wands represent Fire and Swords represent Air. This tradition, however, is not the only one to exist. In a lovely deck titled Celtic Dragon Tarot, this order is reversed. Some believe that Golden Dawn purposefully put the cards out with the suit to element reversed; others believe this tradition is correct. Regardless, the point is that different decks have different meanings and associations that can be large and small. Read with your deck, not against it.
There are several things to keep in mind when reading cards and learning to read them: numerology, the elements, astrology, and the images of each card. For a while, reading cards might feel like grabbing something from a bag off each of these categories and then sticking them together to form a card interpretation. While you’ll certainly learn about each card, it might not be the best method. Instead, something like that offers a route toward memorization that handicaps intuition and personal connection to cards.
Although I, and many others, have certain phrases we associate with certain cards (or pairs of cards), these are not meant to stand in for a full interpretation. An example might be that when the Page of Cups and Page of Wands are together, the phrase “dark rival” comes to mind. The 5 of Cups might be linked to the word “divorce.” And likewise, the Major Arcana card, Death may call to mind “transformation.” These key words are not bad, but it’s important to understand that a card is much more than a word or phrase. Sometimes, that word may apply and sometimes it may not.
Cards must also be read in connection with one another. Aside from one-card readings, it’s important to draw connections between cards that are drawn or “pulled”. This is where most of the reading becomes either relatable for the querent, or problematic. Connecting cards can be intuitive, it can be aided by Spirit(s), or it can simply be relating aspects of a card to that of another. This is what separates good readers from outstanding readers. Good readers get caught up in card meanings and associations, outstanding readers go with the flow and listen, they tune-in to the cards, the querent’s energy, and what’s going on in their own energy to read and tell a story—the story the cards present.
Understanding tarot also comes from realizing and understanding how tarot functions as a language and as a story. The language behind tarot we’ve already discussed a bit. It can be found in the numerology, elements, astrology, and images represented on or by each card. Each of these may seem it’s own ‘language,’ but when they are put together they come to be the language of tarot. Each card carries all of these parts. Perhaps it is easiest to focus only on the symbols like pentacles and coins, or water, moon, animal. But, symbols are not the only foundation of tarot. One must also learn the meaning of the numbers to accurately depict the language on a card. 1 is newness, 5 conflict, 10 completion and so on. It’s easy to say Strength is Leo and so it’s the Sun. But what about the 4 of Cups? 4 is stability, and Cups are emotions. But that does not tell the story of the 4 of Cups. Language is important, but it is not the complete encapsulation of a card.
A deck I recommend to learn about how planetary associations are related to each card is the “Patch Tarot Deck.” It can be found as an app, online, and can also be purchased as a physical deck. This deck labels every card with astrological correspondences. (I have no affiliation with it.)
Now that we’ve touched on the importance of language, on what should be learned about the cards to understand them more fully, it’s time to talk about the place of “Story” in tarot reading. While each card tells a story, so does each suit (and the Major Arcana), and so does the deck as a whole. The easiest way to begin unravelling the story of the cards is to spend time with them.
Grab a card–any card–and look at it. See what’s going on in the picture. See how the characters are interacting, are they facing each other? Facing away (from you)? Are they involved in tasks? What expressions are they wearing? What colors are in the background? Does it look like they’re making a mistake? Are they “winning” (does it cost something)? Etc.
You can also lay out all the cards to a suit and see how the cards progress. From the Ace of Cups where a chalice overflows with positive emotion, to the 2 of Cups where two people are brought closer together, to the 3 where a harmonious family/friends scene is shown, to the contemplative 4, and the clashing out-of-balance 5, etc. See how the cards move from one to the next. (Numerology will be helpful here especially.) Look of the Major Arcana as well, watch as the cards go from the Fool to the Magician (what a transition!), to the Hanged Man, to the Tower, and to the Sun, follow the cards to Judgement and The World. What if you were a spectator walking through this world of drawings and characters? What story would you come away with? This is what the cards give to you.
So when you read, bring this knowledge with you. Start slow. Take the pressure away and sit and look at your cards. Read their language and read the story they are showing you. From one card to the next. Pick out themes that stand out in Major Arcana cards and ones that stand out between multiple cards. Make note of these. Make note of repeating numbers, astrological associations, and more. Being able to connect cards may take time, but this is what brings your reading a level up. After that, it’s about degree of understanding and intuition.
You may not understand everything in the moment, that’s okay. Bring a notebook and write things down, especially patterns! If you have any experiences like a vision or a spirit speaking, etc. you should write that down as well. Even if you just have a feeling about what a card means or could mean, put that down too. This will really help you when you look back to see how you’ve progressed, but also when you look back to see how accurate your reading was. Tarot can be used in many ways, only some of which include predictions, but accuracy comes in many forms.
Some Add-Ons
Clairaudience
Some people may call this intuition, others may call it hearing Spirit(s). The truth is, sometimes it’s one, sometimes it’s the other, and sometimes it’s both. Regardless, the following applies.
When you “hear” something during a reading, write it down! These tidbits of information can be incredibly helpful and often are useful in connecting the dots between cards. If you’re naturally good at this type of “hearing,” it may happen more often than for others. Whether you are or aren’t, taking a breath when you’re caught up in meanings or trying to draw a connection and taking a step back from the cards can help loosen your mind and allow you to “hear.” No matter if you’re doing an evocation and know who gave you the words, or alone with your deck, write down what you hear! You can dissect and analyze it later.
Clairvision
Sometimes when you’re reading you may get a “vision.” Pay attention to it. Close your eyes (unless you already have another method you prefer) and watch the vision until it ends. Just watch. When it’s over, that’s when you should write it down. Write down details before you write down the big picture as those will be the first to fade from your mind. Even if a detail is really loud and stands out, write down a word or phrase before moving on.
You may not understand something in the moment, that’s okay. Sometimes they will make much more sense later. The more you experience things like visions, the more you’ll be able to understand them in the moment and for clarity. When you read cards, bring a notebook in case of these experiences, but also simply to catalogue your readings. When you look back, it’ll be really amazing to see how you’ve progressed. Visions will likely be related to what you’re reading cards about if not the cards themselves.
While a bit morbid, I’d like to give an exaggerated example for clarity. Here’s my example spread: you pull The Moon, 7 of Swords, Death, and the 4 of Wands . You may interpret this as emotions and confusion of choosing a path lead to deception and transformation, ultimately the confusion clears and you gain stability. That’s a decent, basic interpretation. Now, if you see a vision of say, someone you know laying in a pool of blood on the grass in front of their house, that should change your interpretation. You might now interpret, The Moon brings confusion of emotions which ties into the 7 of Swords’ deception and thievery, something goes wrong and Death becomes literal death after which you find stability. This “stability” may be a literal house, it may be money, or anything else.
Visions, should you have them, should become the focus of a card set. Trust them. (This paragraph is for people experienced in visions, not people who’ve never experienced and don’t understand them.)
I’ll close by saying the Moon is an interesting, fascinating card with many interpretations. The 7 of Swords does not herald death, it’s about mischief and betrayal. Death, I have only had mean literal death twice and it was about the same human. And the 4 of Wands is generally a lovely bright card. Do not expect people to die when you pull the Death card. That’s not what it was really meant for and that’s not something that usually occurs. A reader can go a whole lifetime and never have anyone die because of that card, I’ll bet it’s common. If you ever feel scared of a card, I have 2 suggestions. The first is to Take A Break. Hide your decks away and stop reading for a period of time, something substantial to you (a month or two for example). The second is to take that card out of your deck, it’s not something I recommend and in-fact advise against because it feeds fear and restrains your potential, but your safety and well-being comes first.
So, a long section, but something that should be addressed with visions. They are not all sunshine and flowers, and so I thought we should talk about a darker aspect. I don’t think it’s addressed enough honestly.
Understanding a deck, or tarot at large, is a skill that comes before using tarot. They can be learned side-by-side, but be cautious of becoming too reliant on the “white book” so to speak. Next in Tarot will be how it can be used!